Monday, May 27, 2013

Run or Walk?

So I exercised on Thursday and Friday as usual, did the No more trouble zone-on Thursday and the Banish fat boost metabolism on Friday. All was well on Saturday, I intended to go for a run, but a part of me did not  want to, may be the part who was scared that the knee would hurt. So I did NOT go.

Anyhow I told myself I will get back to my workout routine on Monday, as usually the weekends are so busy with other activities and grocery and going up and down the stairs in the house a gazallion times in a day, so with the knee being on border line I thought it would be wise to keep it light.

Saturday evening, I was folding all the tonne of laundry which was sitting and looking at me for a very long time.I bend over to take something up from the bed and my I felt a electrifying spasm shoot from my knee,and I was put to sit down (meaning it was not an intentionally action, it just happened) as if the knee gave up on me! I sat rubbing my knee, moving in, flexing it. At it felt completely okay after a bit as if nothing ever happened. BUT again at dinner time the same thing happened again! At this point I was terrified and the husband was getting MAD at my 'I will not go see a doctor' attitude! By this point even I was getting to be worried,for my knee.

My reasons for not wanting to see a doctor were very clear-What if the doctor asks me to rest/ stop running? I DON'T want to hear that-

However, I NEED my KNEES--and at this point I need them more than I WANT to RUN! There comes a time in life when you need to choose between your NEED and your WANT and my NEED at this point is far higher than my WANT! So I swallowed my pride and went to see a doctor in a WALK-IN clinic on a Sunday morning!

The Doctor pretty much said what I thought she would, she said I have OVER WORKED my LEG! That I need to REST it as much as I can, if at all I can SWIM but no running at least till we do a X-RAY and find out what's going on inside.She said any form of exercise is BAD at the moment! As we do not know what's happening, and if at all there is a DAMAGE in there.She also said that loosing weight would help. Okay seriously guys, I find it ridiculous when she said I can't exercise BUT loosing weight would help-my thoughts OKAY-BUT HOW? I won't go swimming as I know it makes me so hungry that I will eat double the calories I burnt-this is solely out my personal experience!

I went for a X-Ray this evening :(.  The results will come in, in 2-3 days to my doctor! Keeping my fingers crossed that it isn't anything serious!

As for diet, I am researching my diet if my future has 'no exercise' written in it! I will update you when I finalize on the 'diet' plan I would follow!

I so badly wanna RUN but I more importantly wanna be able to WALK for the rest of my life!

How was your weekend?

Thursday, May 23, 2013

I will succeed sooner rather than later

So as mentioned in my earlier post I did start exercising again! Wohoo for that! I was supposed to start on Saturday but that didn't work out too good, BUT I did manage to start on Sunday .

I went out for a 3.5 kms run on Sunday, although the endorphins made me feel great!! My knee hurt again, and this time is was after I completed the run :( BOO! I have started getting quiet worried about this now. I am going to first and fore-mostly change my shoes,I have been running in a couple of my favorite shoes for over 3 years.

I refuse to give up running you guys!

I really do love it and I have worked my way up to building a Stamina and really love it. Especially now when the Sun has started to shows its (ANNUAL) face to us here -I aint giving up run nah uh! Not in the Spring/Summer season,I mean this is the season that all runners wait for to go outdoors and run here in VanCity!

Anyhow, since my knee was hurting I rested it on Monday, and Tuesday onwards I thought it would be wiser that I do my home video, so I did No More trouble Zone on Tuesday and Wednesday and today I did the Banish Fat boost Metabolism! So, so far so good.

I don't know ,why this time its so hard for me to loose weight! (Weight loss has so much to do with what you put into your mouth) I have done this before several times.I have dieted like crazy back in the days when I was an Aerobics Instructor and used to really care that I look Hot and Sexy!I don't know why the same ME finds it so hard to stick to any kind of 'diet' now ? Its like now the rebel in me does not want to, so much as talk about any kind of diet!
 I remember the time when even in days like Diwali when there used to be tonnes of sweets and delicacies in the house and all around -I would not so much as think of any of the food ,and would always say 'No' to any and all the offerings made by my Poor Aai (Mum) and everyone else.

The only (BIG) difference between then and now is that then I would not have to cook all the food and then not eat it! Cause that is torture as per me! Now I cook food for the family especially the husband loves food -simple but variety of cuisine,and snacks. So I end up make Pasta,Macaroni,Pizza,curry,south Indian food most of the time. Although we have been quiet deligent of eating out only once/max twice a month and I usually order a Salad cause I love the salads especially the Taco Salads.

 I still do end up cooking all these items at home. I am also cooking with Cooking Oil Spray so that cuts the fat to more than half .

 Still Portion control is where I am lacking currently.

Snacking is also a major weakness. I need to get my mind out of the 'All or nothing' attitude when it comes to food and diets, its like I either want to Diet or I want to HOG like its my last supper!

But I also have to remind myself everyday that I am doing great! I am doing the very BEST in the circumstances and situation that I am currently in, I mean back then I had no worry in the world, Aai would cook,do the dishes,do the laundry,make our lunches,-I on the other hand would take an Aerobics batch in the morning,then go do my full time job and then go back to take another Aerobics Batch in the evening, and then go home to a hot plate of meal  on the table!

Now, is different,so although I beat myself up for letting go and having putting on so much weight, I also see that I am still trying and (hopefully) I will succeed sooner rather than later !

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Fell of the Wagon---BUT I am trying to catch UP!

First it was my knee injury and now that it is getting better,I have just been thinking of exercising. But thinking of exercise does not make me loose weight!

Unfortunately! So I have to find a fix soon, as of now the new excuse that I have is that I have really not been able to fit exercise in my schedule,(as usual).

I haven't weighed myself, in what feels like a lifetime now, and frankly now I'm so scared,its like I'm at peace with myself, and then suddenly when I find out how much I weigh (whenever that happens) I will start judging myself,and beating myself up for being such a slack-So I have decided to workout atleast for a week continuously and then weigh myself-To be on the safe side-lol

There are a few things changing work schedule wise starting next week and I am determined to start to exercise from Monday  Saturday---Hopefully work schedule is changing (for the better) and I am going to find time in the morning (at 5 am ) to be able to exercise.So I am determined to make this work.I can't be the last soul on earth who has twins, and a full time job, with no help from immediate family (except the blessing called a wonderful husband). So I will cook for the week over the coming weekend, that way it frees up my evenings to spend time with the kids.

Note to Self-

Source: via Cindy on Pinterest

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Still recovering and taking it easy!

My knee pain on a scale to 1-10 (10 being the highest) is at about a 2.5 now. I still have decided to take it easy this week too. Last week too I did not move an inch. I'd rather use the R.I.C.E method.

It stands for

So that's exactly what I am doing, weight wise after April 1st challenge started-I haven't weighed myself. At this point however,if I do weigh myself I am going to worry even more and would itch to do some sort of activity,hence I would let it go this week and hop on the scale again next week.

I was planning to do a race this month too, but I will have to see how that would go, or if at all that is a feasible option right now.

A whole lot of stuff going on work / life balance wise too which I am trying hard to balance right now.

More later !