I know I have been missing this week.
The reason is more emotional than anything else.
I would lie, if I was saying things are all hunky dory in this country since we have migrated.
It obviously took more than sweat and blood for us to move base two times to two different countries, once to the UAE and then and a FINAL one to Canada.
When we applied to be immigrated we applied on something called the 'point system' where in,you need to be eligible (based on your qualification,age,work experience,Bank balance) which we did and we moved base to Canada.
Things are different here, employers don't hire people if they have no "Canadian experience" and we were lucky that the husband found a job almost in 2 months.
I know someone, who is a Doctor (Medical) and is working at a level which is under their expertise, and someone who had to work a store job when they were software engineer!
Immigrants almost always end up in a profession that has nothing to do with their education, as in the end they have put food on the table.
Jobs in Canada are very very HARD to find and the pay that you get is (Almost always) less than what you would get had you still been back where you came from.
Dubai was different, their our qualifications and work experience counted.
Although it had its own set of other challenges!
We are in a fix now, we can't move back to where we came from and life is so hard here.
Last I visited India was in 2005.
I never have spoken of this in my blog, as it is a very hard subject for me to speak about.
It has been hard for me to accept that it was a HUGE mistake to move here.
Moving back to Dubai now (with three kids) won't be the smartest thing to do. Besides my older one doesn't want to move anywhere, he likes Canada.
But what about me?
I was the most ambitious person you would have met back in my teens and twenties.
Now, I quiet frankly have no hope that life will ever be better "Career" wise
The husband says "Grin and Bare it!"
To top it all we had TWINS-I am not blaming them, I am just saying God has a weird sense of humor.
Sometimes, quiet frankly I think GOD doesn't like me much, and rather put me through Hardship than anyone else, as he knows I am courageous enough to immerse from it!
Hence he makes me face all kinds of challenges all the time.
So not Fair!
First I had to deal with giving birth to the TWINS and the next 2 1/2 months all on my own(and hubby)
with no help from family Thanks to my mum having a serious Spinal injury.
In an alien country, just my husband and myself, with three kids.
With moderate income.. It gets beyond HARD
I sometimes see no light at the end of this TUNNEL!
The sole intention in moving to this country was so that we could have a "Better" life and give our kids a much much "Better" life.
I think we are achieving the later, the former---I don\t know-quality wise life is great but its lacking so many other places and things for me especially in career!
Anyhow, these things have been boiling on me.
Our Indian Education is of no value in this country,my co worker may be getting a better paycheck than me, even though I have more work experience and much more educated.
If I go back to school now, when will I finish and when will I repay my student loan (as I don't have money for my own education ) I am 39 years!
Such is life of an immigrant.
We have to work TWICE as much to be HALF as good as people who were born/raised/educated here.
On the face there is NO discrimination from co workers what so ever! People are really nice! Very pleasant and polite!
However when it comes to your career Employers are probably looking at other things,no one says things like this on the face, BUT you would only know it if you have experienced it!
Anyhow, this week has been tough due to these and similar such thoughts!
Obviously I turned to food, as food always makes me feel happy (for the time being ) and I gained this week
Gained 0.6 lbs
Image Courtesy-Google images
On the hind side, I knew I was falling off, and I am very thankful it was just 0.6
The amount of chips and cheese sandwich and ice cream I have eaten, is not good!
But I am going to get my focus back now.
One thing I let go was tracking diligently, I would track till evening and then slip up.
I am changing that.
Goals for this week
- Track everything
- Get back to the Weigh in Wednesdays-it helps in keeping the focus
- Exercise 5 times until the next meeting.
- Try and eat from the Power Foods and Simple Start menu
- Use minimum Extra Points.
We passed China Town the other day this is the foto from then
Over and out!