Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Identity Crisis and other ramblings~~~

HELLOOO Blogger friends

I am still alive, although it definately does seem like a part of me has definately died a silent death!

The part who had career goals in mind,

the part who was a "Full time"

working Mom

and the Super woman!

I have not abandoned my blog, I have just been too tied with looking for another job.

Especially now when it was quiet this month with the kids away.

I have had a few interviews here and there, but nothing ahead of that.

I am trying my BEST to not get discouraged and to believe

That if GOD has got me to it,

He WILL

take me THROUGH it!!

I am a bit frustrated for sure with the whole situation of suddenly being laid off,

and suddenly questioning my self worth---It's funny how my job was such an integral part of my identity

and suddenly now I am question my own identity!!

Looking for a job and going for interviews and applying for jobs and resume tweaking and getting references, is all what I have been doing the last little while!

Thankfully in all this madness I have not forgotten my weight loss goals!

Although I did show a gain the last weigh-in

BUT today my weight was back to 166.0 lbs

UGGH---I have just the last 3 pounds to go before my first mini goal and a reward and I for the life of me cannot get to it!

I am in my own way!!

I need to stop SABOTAGING my own efforts.



My workouts have been consistent

I have even bought myself a bike and my son and I go bike riding almost everyday





FOOD is another story....this is the part where I eat right but then SNACK like a crazy woman---UGGH!!

Anyways....

 I have my sister and her family visiting me over this long weekend, so I won't be able to attend the meeting on Saturday,

So I have decided I will go to another location tomorrow and get myself weighed-in

Just so I have that accountability.

Will update my results again tomorrow.

Linking up with these awesome ladies






The Hump Day Blog Hop











That's it for now-

XOXO, Sheetal

Monday, June 9, 2014

No Fun Monday and some not so exciting news!

Last week on a Thursday, my day started with a very HARD issue at work, and I was stuck on this issue for over an hour.

Once I was done with that issue.

Next I find my higher up (don't want to say who or the position for obvious reasons) called me in to let me know that there have been changes and that I have immediately been 'Laid off' work.

I don't want to go into more details here for obvious reason, BUT as it stood I was suddenly unemployed.

My Thursday and Friday went by wallowing in self pity and asking the question "WHY-ME" gazillion times with no one to answer this question.

The company I worked for is a great company, the team, the management everyone were really nice,so it is rather SAD that I was laid off, but it is what it is!

I have to move on,

luckily,

the hubs was there and tried to divert my attention and we did get some time to grieve over my lost job.

We decided we would continue with the kids daycare and everything at least this month and see how it goes.

We also don't want to let the older one know about all this, just cause he is at an age where he has questions which he has but he cannot comprehend the answers so it's best for now for him to not know all what's going on.

Kids also made me get back to, at least "act" normal that evening,

I love them so dearly and thank god everyday for blessing me with all three of my kids!

The only thing that went well that day was my kids and there playing around!




Saturday was my official Weigh in at Weight Watchers meeting.


I so, did not want to go, as I had PIGGED out on Ice Cream on Thursday night as of course Food is the answer to everything ~! Right?

I still pushed myself, as I knew, that if I give up now it will spiral, so I did.

We are short a Leader,so there wasn't any meeting but there was a Weigh-in

My Saturday's weigh in was 1 lbs down than last weigh in

166.0 lbs

Did I get disappointed -Heck  No-

A Loss after pigging out on Ice cream was a bonus, so I will take it.

On one hand I so badly want to be 30 lbs lost, and I am 3 lbs shy of that.

But the scale is moving in the right direction so I am happy about that.

That's it for now,will update the rest of my weekend and other stuff later.

How was your weekend?

XOXO, Sheetal

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Transformation Tuesday on a Weigh in Wednesday and a hump day blog hop!


Transformation Tuesday on a Wednesday


A decade ago I was a Big FAT girl who was pretty from inside but trapped in my own body.

When I gained weight I never saw myself "BIG" just like the boyfriend in  'Shallow Hal' where I never saw myself as 'THAT' big! Which was sad, because although, I did buy bigger size clothes,I never in my mind processed that information. 

As the years went by, I slowly got used to my BIGGER body, and although I have never been sedentary ever in my life, my eating has been all over the place.

My excuse was that "Oh but I do exercise, it's probably JUST my genes!"

Except since February when I finally joined Weight Watchers and it has got me to look at food as a source instead of a form of pleasure.

I don't think I am perfect , but I am surely working towards that goal.





With regards to the Chip less challenge for the month of June,I swear to god I picked a Loonie out from my pocket twice to go grab some Chips from the vending machine this afternoon, but had to stop myself

Once I used mints to stop myself, as once I get my mouth all minty the craving subsides.






Note to self-Don't keep any coins handy! 

Today's weight is--





Still here, still under 165 lbs but lower than the official weigh in!

Linking up with these lovely ladies.









The Hump Day Blog Hop



















Thanks for stopping by!

XOXO, Sheetal

Monday, June 2, 2014

June Goals and Chip less challenge!

Hello friends!

So I was expecting a gain this week, as I could not keep my hands off, of Chips!!

UGGH!!!!!

What do I really do with this to myself!

I gained a 0.8 lbs

Although it is 0.8 I am not too okay with it!

I have been hovering in this range the entire of May, and that is not A okay!!!






My food has been all over the place and weight loss unfortunately is mostly to do with food and less to do with how much exercise I do!






Goals and challenge for June

  1. Start Chalean Extreme (and stick to it )
  2. Do Cardio every day for at least 30 minutes
  3. Track my food
  4. Start weighing in on Wednesday too
  5. Post on the blog twice a week at least
  6. Weigh in at 159 or less by beginning of July




Challenge for June


June is going to be a CHIPLESS month....

Yes that's right, I have decided I will not eat a single chip in the month of June!

What goals have you set lately?


Linking up with
Also linking with these lovely ladies, not sure why I can't grab the button, so linking up funday-Monday linkup
XOXO, Sheetal